The Next Step?

It's already the middle of the summer and two things frighten me. One, is that I've been trying to find a job for the past probably six months and still have had shitty success. I have had my hopes answered and then smashed after I went to the Bloomington Job Fair and actually managed to get a job at Sonic. Lets just say that their organization skills only gave me a couple training hours of two months of being employed there. It's seriously frustrating after applying for so many jobs and being denied time after time. I know part of the reason is my lack of social skills but I mean what better why to improve those then set me out there to work with customers. My fear is that I wouldn't be able to manage to get one by the end of summer. My anxiety is constantly worrying about money, about wishing I could take my girlfriend out for dinner, or wishing for that cute shirt while stopping with friends, or wishing to go to a concert. I just don't understand why no one ever seems interested when I try really hard in school and throughout my daily life. I sometimes hear about certain people slacking at their jobs and I'm just like are you serious... I would work ten times harder then that and would be very dedicated to work, but it just doesn't work that way...Oh well I will still continue my search for a job, I wouldn't give up. Wish me luck. :)

The other thing on my mind is that I will be attending Normandale Community College in about a month. I'm signed up to take two classes there and two at my High School. I might sound like a nerd but I actually really like school. It's just that college is supposedly this whole new thing that I'm not sure I'm totally prepared for it. It's something that I've wanted to do since I was in eighth grade, the whole do part time community college while still in High School but now that it's actually coming true, it's really hitting that every move I make affects my future. When I reread this over it sounds extremely lame to vent about this but I know I probably ain't the only one who feels this way. My hopes are that I can manage everything in my life especially holding down good grades at both schools. I guess time will tell what I can and can't do.